Maybe it's the procrastination,
that causes me some hesitation,
I'm wanting some relaxation,
but can't find the motivation.
I want some peace of mind,
but can't ever seem to unwind,
and definitely cannot stop time,
so I'm often wishing i can hit rewind.
I'm stuck in a loop of uncertainty,
That borders on insanity,
so I cannot face the reality,
that I may have failed society.
And I'm lost in a cycle of pain,
where I cannot seem to maintain,
a quality of life which keeps me sane,
so I'm always looking for a way to reframe...
My thoughts and my way of thinking,
especially the way I look without seeing,
and if I can regulate my breathing,
maybe I could finda a me worth redeeming.
One step at a time slowly day by day,
I will work on my minds constant mêlée,
guard all the hurtful things I say,
and hope beyond hope that I just may...
Break through these walls holding me back,
find the freedom my mind lacks,
live in a way I can finally relax,
and guide myself through these endless stacks...
Of built up emotions and old hate,
of all that makes me hesitate,
and causes me to procrastinate,
so I can finally self-motivate.